Hey guys! So for the past few weeks, it has been a pretty busy week. Studying whenever I can, working in between, while also trying to squeeze in the usual things of running, writing and storytelling whenever I can. Here’s some of the things that I have been progressing through.
Running:
I will admit, on the Saturdays when I’m doing my run, I think I am starting to get better at it. It may not be the best, but to see the time ticking down each week for the past few weeks, it has been a pleasure to see. It shows that I have been improving with my speed and getting back into the groove of running, even if it’s going to take a while.
I have also decided, since I have been contemplating this for some time, I want to participate in some of the runs for fund-raisers, so I have decided that I was going to participate in one next month for 47km in a month, and another one in October that is about 70km. I am not too sure if I’m going to manage to make it, especially the one for October, but I know that all I can do is try my best, and hope that I can manage with the runs that I am doing and also know that I am supporting people towards something great.
I try to do my best with my current volunteering role, in order to help people run, encourage them and help them become healthier over time. But with something that can either be life threatening or impact the way that you live, I do believe that I should help them in some shape or form in order to make sure that they’re able to live the lives that they want.
Writing Projects:
I feel like I am sort of getting back into the groove of creating this story. I have been writing my story, and even trying to think of future projects and how it will all go together.
I have mostly been updating Conjured Secrets draft and seeing where the story will take me. There is something really nice about finding the pieces clinging together better than it has before, while also starting to feel more confident, that maybe this draft is the draft that feels like the pieces are clinging together properly while trying to tell the story that I want to convey.
But of course, I need to wait until the draft is finished in order to gain a proper assessment of it.
Here’s my favourite paragraph that I have created from my upcoming story, Conjured Secrets:
“I have to go!” I scramble around my mum, when she jerks around. Her hand is just touching my waist, when it quickly breaks apart. The door starts to waver, when I grab the door knob, and twist it open. It’s a path full of white.
I jump in. A sense of long needed relief flows throughout me, with my heart starting to patter less.
A laugh starts to chime throughout the space as I am falling down, black starting to form around me.
“Great work…! You still got two to go~!” A giggle chimes. I close my eyes. To finally escape from this place. But when I open them back up, just for a second, fear starts to gain a hold of me… Dark brown hair starts to flow down, with a cold stare wanting to strike me down…. I let out a scream.
To be honest, some of the concepts of this draft is fun to work with. But I will admit: maybe this draft is becoming a bit more to how I would actually like it to turn out than the other drafts that I have done for the past four years now? (Really, it feels like half of that time, but it actually is nearly that long. So I am really surprised about it all!)
But I digress: Sometimes, it does take years of experimentation to get it to the way that you want. And some things you write up may come together and make sense in the most mysterious ways after you have thought about them for quite some time, whether it is conscious or not.
The end.
Thank you for reading until the end of this newsletter!
I will be honest, there is a hell lot on my plate at the moment. But at the same time, I am trying to not stress about it too much, and try to be a bit more in the flow with this sort of stage in my life, even though it feels like there is so much to do ever since I have come back and wanting to be able to do it all at once.
I know it won’t last forever. It will only be for give or take a year, then hopefully I will have a bit more on my plate to work with, find somewhere else to work at for a short while and just… Have the capability to learn new things. Maybe try to not overwork myself too much, and have the capacity to work on my projects more without feeling so tired all the time. This is something that I am hoping for myself.