Well for the past few weeks, I would have to say that it is…. Hectic to say the least.
Would I like to say that there has been plenty of my mind with assignments that need to be due, newsletters that I have been trying to juggle and to just…
I can’t lie about this, there is so much that I probably need to do at the moment. Some are greater priorities than others, and part of me is starting to think for now, maybe until the end of this year at least, I might be considering on doing this every three weeks to a month…?
I am not entirely sure about this. Do you know the feeling where it’s like, not wanting to give anything up, just because you want to hold some things tighter than others, but deep inside, knowing that sometimes, it might be better to push some things to the side, even if it’s for a while.
Normally, I have no issues letting things drop to the side. Or at least, that used to be me. But nowadays, there’s this feeling… Temptation? Where it’s like, I want to hold onto everything so tight. Doing newsletters, posts and writing stories is important to me. LIke, I do want to keep on doing it.
At the same time, another part of me, the professional side of me wants to pull in another direction. And it’s like at times, I do want to do the personal side, yet the professional, the side that want me to improve the skills that will be important for me later down the line is calling out for me to do something about it.
Yet there’s this strange aversion that makes me want to avoid it, even if I know that by doing it won’t make it get any better. It will make it worse.
I am not entirely sure what I will do about it at this stage, I may post here less frequently as a result of it, or perhaps it might manage to fix itself. I can notice the haphazard focus of my concertration, so for hopefully for focus purposes, I will use a flip phone to help manage it. It’s primary purpose for calling texting and those sorts while my normal phone that I currently use the Nothing 2A (which is supposed to be a phone that reduces your screen time) for computer and internet stuff.
But I am bound to figure out on how I will use two phones or I just might use my normal phone again! I need the phone, but it gets a bit infuriating when I just casually slip my phone out and just look at it, not taking much notice at how nice the world is, or to at least look at a book, or something…!
And I have… Somewhat.
Throughout the last week: It’s been a bit hard. To find how much I depend on technology to get about in my life and being asked about using the maps, not being able to rely on the timetable as much and just being able to guess on how it’ll all work. I won’t lie, I do enjoy holding a small device that I am able to call and just talk to without being immersed into the technology so often. But there is also a part of me that sort of wishes to be able to do the things that I normally do.
However, I do want to try this challenge… Even though there is no hotspot and just see how it all goes.
Anyway, that is it from me for this fortnight, keep tuned to me next fortnight where I’ll be explaining the next steps of my life, or at least continuously pondering about it all!
I know that I sometimes ramble on about my life, but I guess that I do want people to focus, and take an example from me where yes, I may complain, whine and try to figure stuff out. But I do hope that by my ramblings however literal or philosophical they are it’s able to help someone.